It's getting hard to travel these days. I was planning on making a oneshot Christmas story. I think I can pull it off. It's about this guy who's finally reunited with is girlfriend. However, he was just in time when his girlfriend was boarding the airplane; her flight was during Christmas day. The last panel ends with a the girl smiling. So it's an ambiguous ending. Just like my ending. I don't want to wait in vain. Sigh.

I'm afraid that I'll have another cold Christmas. Sigh. Mou! I want to be with Tenma-chan this Christmas. Or I just want to spend some time with her this Christmas! My eyes are crying blood and my heart is going to explode. My inspiration's sucked out from the inside and out. I'm always wanting and longing to see her. And this eggnog is horrible! Who put this on my fridge?!

Hey, I managed to save up some money! Booya! I was away during spring because I went to help with fishing. It's not fishing as in going to a pond and then fish using a rod. No way. That's hella boring. I meant fishing as in braving the rough waves and fishing for crabs, lobsters, tunas and so on with a fishing vessel. I was away on the sea for weeks and we've just come home last Saturday. It was just a one time opportunity. I did this before remember? I wanted to go away for the time. I was itching for some adventure. I really can't stand still as it seems. And I needed the money. I can buy my camera now. Not those girly small digicams. Hell no. I'm talking about those cameras that Fuyuki-kun uses. You know the guy in my class with glasses? What do you call them? SLR? DSLR? The camera is going to be a huge addition to me. I'm always traveling and so a camera's going to be useful. I'd be able to base my mangas using the pictures I've taken. And obviously, I can take pictures of people... Tenma-chan. Ahh... Anyway, I need to get a hold of Fuyuki-kun because I need his advise what camera to buy!

My neck hurts. I might have strained my muscle from the trip. I've been traveling for a while. I'm bored in my life. Traveling can do so much. You learn something new and the time passes by fast. But now I don't know if it was a good idea to travel often. Like I said, I'm bored, but whenever I'm home, I get bored easily.

In the past, I could lie down on the bed all day, but now I can't even stay still on the couch with the TV on. I have this urge to move. I have this urge to stay in motion. It's frustrating how I want to go back traveling again, but don't have the money to do so. Maybe I should go beat up a wall. Or look for a fight. Yeah! That'll jump start me.

It's cliche. I thought it wouldn't be possible in real life. I've been feeling really down. I've been feeling depressed to the point that I don't care about what's happening in my life. When I saw her smile, life flooded my veins. I was able to smile as well. It felt like a magic spell. How can once smile turn my life around?

When I see your smile, I am the happiest person in the world. You know how I get bored easily. I am tired of my life. But when I see your smile, I feel like life is worth living. Boredom fleets away from me. All my troubles disappear. I feel refreshed. Your smile is the best remedy for every problem there is.

So it's important to keep her smiling. Just knowing how much her smile could affect me, I wouldn't want to know how devastating if I see her upset. Worse, I don't know what will happen to me if I see her cry. I adore you smile. But your laughter is the best. When you smile at me, it lights my day. And you take my breath away. I have to make you happy no matter what.

"H- hello? What the hell are you calling me early for?"

"Moshi-moshi?- Harima? It's Eri."

"HAAH? Ojo-chan? It's 6 in the freaking morning. Can't you call me later? I need some sleep."

"How rude! Men should wake up early so that they can earn more money!"

"What the hell are you talking about?! Mou! What is it? Or else I'm hanging up!--"

"Chotto neh!... wait... I need to prepare for this... I need to ask for your help!"

"What?" after rubbing my eyes. I rubbed my ears. "What did you say?"

"I said I need your help." then I rubbed my cellphone. "I need you to come with me tomorrow to a party. I will be hosting it."

"... Ojo- you gotta be kidding me."

"I'm not kidding! I need you as my chaperone tomorrow!"

"WHY ME?! You have a wide arsenal of people you can use."

"How inappropriate, Hige! I'm not using you!

"I mean you have a lot of friends! Why would you come calling to me?!"

"I have no one else to ask for help. Everyone is apparently busy." that's when it hit me that her friends' might be throwing a conspiracy.

"No one at all?! And how do you expect me, a delinquent, to act all right and justly in your party?! I might send one of your guests to the hospital. Huh? You like that?"

"..."

"Oi. Moshi mosh?"

"Harima, I really don't know anyone else who can help me." she said. "What you said... if you cause trouble, it's a risk I'm willing to take. I'm helpless right now. My dad is supposed to go but he's sick and he's personally asked me to do this favor for him. You know how my relationship is with my dad. I wouldn't want to let him down. Nor my family down. So please, what do you want me to do so that you can help me?"


I rubbed my eyes and checked the time. It was almost 7AM. When's the last time I woke up so early?


"All right. I'll do it." I might be getting crazy.

"I won't hold it against you if you get upset with my guests."

"Don't worry. I won't do anything. I'll try to be a gentleman. Just this one time! OKAY?!" Indeed. I am getting crazy.


This is my first time helping someone host a party. What should I do?!... ah! but this is good material for a manga too.

I was browsing some mangas when I saw this one manga that caught my attention. It was really digitalized with a glossy paper, and it was full-colored. It was a new title too. Instant best-seller! Unbelievable. I can somewhat feel the pain of other mangakas who has been in the business for so long and they've been passed by this one new manga. When I read the story, it was so-so but the art was amazing. I was a bit pissed too. I became skeptic about how long it would remain famous. Anyway, I bought it. I've been wanting to speak with its mangaka. Obviously they didn't put any contact information for him. But I called the publisher and they said that they couldn't disclose that information either. How could I leave a message for them when I want to personally speak with him. I want to ask for tips and advise, damn it! Bring him here or I'll burn your office down! Judging by the art, I'm pretty sure they've used some sort of software. Duh. Aren't manga softwares expensive? I'm good at drawing too, you know. And with my drawing plus the software, I can make my mangas digital and modern with the contemporary feeling or whatever you call it. I'll just visit the publisher. Sou sou. Then I'll wait each day. Then I'll randomly shout the author's name. Whoever turns head, that's him. Genius, Harima. You're a genius. And I'll look for software.